i always ask for happiness and sometimes i do find it.
but now, it came to me that my problem is not finding it;
but believe in it.
if i believe that i can find happiness then it will come to me
it doesn't matter how short or long it could be
but if i believe in it, it will come.
i have always been unhappy and frustrated
trying to find answers and realization
trying to understand how things will go
and fearing of something i don't know.
the future waits for me to do something, to move forward on.
i am getting frustrated because of myself
i expect too much but do nothing
i fear too much and i've gain nothing
i guess i was not ready to be mature so fast
having this mixed of new things confused me
changes are so fast and so as the time
i have my dreams before me though i am so afraid to look at it
i am insecure
mostly on myself
this thing caused me a lot of problems that i didn't notice until now.
i feared other people and questioned their loyalty.
now, i think i found my hope
and i know i don't want to ruin it.
thank you for everything.
i have been touched and loved.
